It’s been harder for me to step across that line.
You’ve been waiting there for me for such a long time.
If they gave awards for patient understanding,
you’d hold every blue ribbon they offered, I know.
We’d need a display case to hold all those trophies,
then have to box and store the ones that wouldn’t fit.
Only glitter seems what you get for loving me.
My whole life it’s been hard to open up my heart.
Can’t let someone have it when she says she loves me.
I rein in my emotions, then leave before long,
though you’re the closest I’ve come to falling in love.
But I still can’t commit because of those old wounds,
and not loving’s the worst of procrastinations.
I couldn’t wait for me even as the cows head out.