for Willie Nelson
My silence was my worst mistake
Not saying the same, I know, must have hurt
Being unsure of what to do
At the end of the day
Meant I’d only be sure of losing you
For a while not saying so didn’t matter
I hoped somehow to say enough in my way
Maybe time can heal some wounds
But it only hurt me worse
If I’d known better I’d have said it back then
From that moment you told me we were through
I saw I’d only played a selfish part
If I’d known what I’ve learned since
I’d have followed my heart
But my head lost my heart in the end
You told me you loved me so many times
You said you’d waited for me to say it too
I loved you so much, I swear
But it never felt right
To say so when I wanted my freedom, too
When you’re young you think there’s so much more to do
And love back then’s only part of life’s plan
But when time had played its game
And I’d done all I could
Not saying “I love you” was worst thing I’d ever do
You told me you loved me so many times
You said you’d waited for me to say it too
I loved you so much, I swear
But it never felt right
To say so when I wanted my freedom, too
What you wish for you’ll surely regret
Be careful what you wish for, my friend
Lanning Lee 