The Problem of Solving

Real problems I can handle
Those check marks on a to-do list kind
Bam bam bam.
It’s the imaginary ones never taken care of
A mass of devils painted on the wall
Like film running in reverse
A newsreel turning history around and back
A slow-motion mess
Of celluloid unspooling mounting
Like a mass of diamonds
How they flow and press
Glittering coal
With sharp edges
Abrading ideas
A bloody wastebasket overflowing
Where you glimpsed the summit
Abundant answers atop the mountain peak
So you struggle up your step or two
But slip on decaying pages
Of tried solutions tossed
Paper steps and two cuts back
The custodian of my clouded mind
Never clears up the questions
Never even hangs the slim silver linings
Prospects of some breakthrough bright clear clime
All’s left obscured by lightning jags and torrent rains
I’m a lab rat
Where’s that cheese
Please maze me out of it
Or test me better drugs
To clear away the brain fog
Help me juggle out perfect order
The clean solution of refrigerator magnet clicks
My scorpion mind all hands to temples cling
My epitaph confusion